Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Synopsis of a film to be made

This is a synopsis which I thought my life could be.

At the age of 7, Jasper was sodomized by his juvenile neighbour who was 13 years old. Not once, but thrice. When Jasper attained the age of 10 his family shifted their home to another neighbourhood.
Though he didn't understand what happened with him, faint memories of those encounters were still fresh in his mind.
Jasper used to get turned on by underwear models published in the daily newspapers. He cut the contoured images of those models & made his very own stash of semi-naked guys. He often used to masturbate to those images, a habit which he learned while sexperiencing with his juvenile neighbour.
He was gifted a personal computer with limited internet on his 13th birthday. His father introduced him to the text exchanging system on the internet- Yahoo messenger. Jasper browsed through webpages but only under the supervision of his father or mother. He wasn't allowed to access internet on his own.
But slowly slight acts of liberty came from his parents. He was allowed to open the internet when either of his parent was at home, not necessarily sitting with him.
One day, in the list of yahoo chatrooms he noticed a mysterious group under the name of alien looking words- 'Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual'. He joined it out of curiosity. He clicked on one of the many profiles. He didn't have the courage to message that person. He instead opened that profile.
To his shock a photo appeared which showed a completely naked man, not revealing the face and exposing a semi-erect penis.
Jasper went pale. He threw the computer power switch. The computer got shut down in a blink of the eye.
Jasper didn't open the computer for a few days. But then lust appeared in his mind. He couldn't help but recollect & fantasize the naked picture he saw. He devised a scheme. The scheme of lying to his mother.
His father went to office everyday except Sunday. His mother sometimes went to the office on Saturday & exited home around 9 pm. The very next Saturday he woke at 7 am, to his mother's surprise. At 8:30 in the morning he requested his mother to let him surf on the internet. His mother allowed. He was anxiously browsing through irrelevant pages. At 9pm his mother asked him whether he was done with the internet or not. He told his mother another 5 minutes. His mother ordered to close the internet after 5 minutes & left the home.
Jasper could now feel palpitations of his hearts!!!!! He again opened the same yahoo profile. He was so lustful seeing those exotic genitals! He surfed more & more on the internet & masturbated. He did so till he expected his parents to arrive home anytime.

Time passed & Jasper was given permission to surf the internet whenever he felt like. At the age of 15, his father installed unlimited internet in their house. Jasper thoroughly searched on the internet about whatever he liked. He slowly & gradually got introduced to the tonnes of porn available for free on the internet.
He came into contact of gay social networking website, or rather sexual networking websites.
A few days after his 18th birthday Jasper went to meet his first guy. And he solidified his interest in guys. Sexual interest.
But within a few months, Jasper had a desire to be loved by a guy. In a desperate attempt to be loved by someone he selected the first guy he met on a new gay website.
He told all kind of lies to his parents to justify his abrupt increase in his phone bills, late night talking & even spending nights outside his home with his lover.
But to his shock, his lover turned out to be a married guy!
Jasper was devastated. He felt himself plummeting into a deep, void & baseless abyss.
He saw no light, no horizon, no hope.
He confided in his mother. He came out to her. His mother was in utter shock!
She couldn't accept his homosexuality. Neither could his father. They decided to take him to a psychiatrist. Jasper thought he was being treated like a mental patient but still he complied.
To his relief, the psychiatrist didn't tell him to leave homosexuality. Rather he congratulated his parents for having a bold son like him & made him to understand sexuality.
A misunderstanding then took place between his parents & him. His parents thought he had committed a mistake & wanted to reform & he thought he his parents gave forgiven him.
The misunderstanding continued till a year later when his father discovered porn stored in the computer. The issue of his homosexuality surfaced again. Jasper narrowly escaped the turmoil with his dexterity & his parents helplessness.
Jasper concentrated on his career now. He had already got admission to a medical college through a strict competition exam. He now started having dreams about him doing extra-ordinary tasks for his country. He wanted to cross all limits of success.
But the pang of rejection of his homosexuality by his parents & his longing to be in the arms of a guy took form of a skin problem & minor hypertension. He coped up with it. He finally resorted to covertly have sex with guys without giving any hints to his parents.
... tbc