Synopsis of a film to be made

This is a synopsis which I thought my life could be.

At the age of 7, Jasper was sodomized by his juvenile neighbour who was 13 years old. Not once, but thrice. When Jasper attained the age of 10 his family shifted their home to another neighbourhood.
Though he didn't understand what happened with him, faint memories of those encounters were still fresh in his mind.
Jasper used to get turned on by underwear models published in the daily newspapers. He cut the contoured images of those models & made his very own stash of semi-naked guys. He often used to masturbate to those images, a habit which he learned while sexperiencing with his juvenile neighbour.
He was gifted a personal computer with limited internet on his 13th birthday. His father introduced him to the text exchanging system on the internet- Yahoo messenger. Jasper browsed through webpages but only under the supervision of his father or mother. He wasn't allowed to access internet on his own.
But slowly slight acts of liberty came from his parents. He was allowed to open the internet when either of his parent was at home, not necessarily sitting with him.
One day, in the list of yahoo chatrooms he noticed a mysterious group under the name of alien looking words- 'Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual'. He joined it out of curiosity. He clicked on one of the many profiles. He didn't have the courage to message that person. He instead opened that profile.
To his shock a photo appeared which showed a completely naked man, not revealing the face and exposing a semi-erect penis.
Jasper went pale. He threw the computer power switch. The computer got shut down in a blink of the eye.
Jasper didn't open the computer for a few days. But then lust appeared in his mind. He couldn't help but recollect & fantasize the naked picture he saw. He devised a scheme. The scheme of lying to his mother.
His father went to office everyday except Sunday. His mother sometimes went to the office on Saturday & exited home around 9 pm. The very next Saturday he woke at 7 am, to his mother's surprise. At 8:30 in the morning he requested his mother to let him surf on the internet. His mother allowed. He was anxiously browsing through irrelevant pages. At 9pm his mother asked him whether he was done with the internet or not. He told his mother another 5 minutes. His mother ordered to close the internet after 5 minutes & left the home.
Jasper could now feel palpitations of his hearts!!!!! He again opened the same yahoo profile. He was so lustful seeing those exotic genitals! He surfed more & more on the internet & masturbated. He did so till he expected his parents to arrive home anytime.

Time passed & Jasper was given permission to surf the internet whenever he felt like. At the age of 15, his father installed unlimited internet in their house. Jasper thoroughly searched on the internet about whatever he liked. He slowly & gradually got introduced to the tonnes of porn available for free on the internet.
He came into contact of gay social networking website, or rather sexual networking websites.
A few days after his 18th birthday Jasper went to meet his first guy. And he solidified his interest in guys. Sexual interest.
But within a few months, Jasper had a desire to be loved by a guy. In a desperate attempt to be loved by someone he selected the first guy he met on a new gay website.
He told all kind of lies to his parents to justify his abrupt increase in his phone bills, late night talking & even spending nights outside his home with his lover.
But to his shock, his lover turned out to be a married guy!
Jasper was devastated. He felt himself plummeting into a deep, void & baseless abyss.
He saw no light, no horizon, no hope.
He confided in his mother. He came out to her. His mother was in utter shock!
She couldn't accept his homosexuality. Neither could his father. They decided to take him to a psychiatrist. Jasper thought he was being treated like a mental patient but still he complied.
To his relief, the psychiatrist didn't tell him to leave homosexuality. Rather he congratulated his parents for having a bold son like him & made him to understand sexuality.
A misunderstanding then took place between his parents & him. His parents thought he had committed a mistake & wanted to reform & he thought he his parents gave forgiven him.
The misunderstanding continued till a year later when his father discovered porn stored in the computer. The issue of his homosexuality surfaced again. Jasper narrowly escaped the turmoil with his dexterity & his parents helplessness.
Jasper concentrated on his career now. He had already got admission to a medical college through a strict competition exam. He now started having dreams about him doing extra-ordinary tasks for his country. He wanted to cross all limits of success.
But the pang of rejection of his homosexuality by his parents & his longing to be in the arms of a guy took form of a skin problem & minor hypertension. He coped up with it. He finally resorted to covertly have sex with guys without giving any hints to his parents.
... tbc

Angel Attire

I always wished to design the angel wings & other accessories for myself!
but fof, I need to design my body first. I have an average physique; it will go well with my angel attire but I will first chisel it by my sweat.
It need not be a really hunky-chunky 6-pack-abs; just a bit of firmness is required.
Lets talk of various elements.

1. ANGEL WINGS
Well, I want them white; made of cotton or cotton+synthetic; extra soft;
They should have be pear-shaped; size should be neither be as small as it may seem I am carrying a schoolbag & neither large such that I get stuck against the door!
Somewhat like this in size & appearance-

The strings of the wings should not be fluffy like in the second picture & neither too thin like in the first one; it'll be a pure white strap-like band.
The wings should be light-weight :D

2. COVER ON GENITALS
It could be either and undie or pants or kilt-like stuff.
Fat chances exist that I may get a hard-on by seeing myself so if its an undie I'll make sure I tie a diagonal clothe around my waist like this-If its a pant, it can be like
a) Flawless white denim with a distinct shine.
b) White cotton pants
c) Green! yes green colored pants
If it has to be a pant then I'll prefer designing with a green pant.

3. TATTOOS
Naaah! not really in for those permanent ones.
Just an inscription of the following symbol around my navel-
There are other symbols I'd like to inscribe on my body-
a) The endless knot (ShriVats) in the center of my chest

b) inscription of the Soyombo on my lateral biceps
c) Maybe some other tattoo related to mysticism.

... to be continued

simple thoughts

Cute guys have the luxury to be gay

Acceptance- Manzoori

I think its a worldwide notion.
People with uncommon sexual preferences are often subject to prejudice.
I think this is because people have drawn a sphere around them; sphere of belongingness.

Sphere of Belongingness

Suppose I am boarding a train & some passenger pulls me & gets in first. One would expect me to frown & perhaps taunt that person. If that person would have been my own brother I wouldn't have bothered at all. Yes, familiarity breeds contempt.
Why do I bias between my own brother & some unknown passenger?
One might propose that because I have a so-called blood relation with my brother. But then we all came from the same blood.
Here, I remember one of my umpteen questions I shake my mother with. I asked her if we all are each others cousins then whom shall we marry. She was confused but finally said that we should not marry our siblings & first cousins.
So, we must select between whether to think inside the box or outside.

Its a bliss to belong to everyone.
Give everyone love. Expect love in return but don't warranty it. Don't hate anyone because they are not of your own color, religion or country. In fact when we talk about religion & country let us adopt all religions, let us belong to all countries.
This doesn't mean to observe all rituals of religion, in fact its not at all about adopting rituals, just accept all religions. For instance, terrorism is often associated with Islam; Let it be! Don't hate a Muslim because of it. Remember, there are only 5% of Muslims due to which Islam is infamous.
(In fact, when a person indulges in terrorism they automatically abandon their religion.)
Same with countries.
Observe countries just to be a geographical division, a mere geopolitical division meant for the purpose of harmony in administration.
Don't think you belong to a particular country, you belong to this whole cosmos, this entire earth as well. You just happen to be born at a particular place. That's it!


This sense of belongingness is holistic & not out of a particular need.
An aged guy would obviously want that old-age pension should have additional benefits;
a physically challenged would obviously want more facilities for people like them.
Actor Christopher Reeve started his charity centered on the Quadriplegia he had.
(to be contd...)

MATAN SHALEV

I just stumped upon this gorgeous guy while surfing porn on my current (perhaps all time) favorite site www dot xvidoes dot com.
MATAN SHALEV!
I guess this is his most seductive photo as such!
He's a jew & perhaps his talent was recognized in the 2009 gay pornographic film 'Men of Israel' by Michael Lucas, founder of Lucas Entertainment.
What I really liked about Shalev is that he makes a gay proud to be gay.
Whenever he's penetrated in the porn movies he remains in a wide-mouthed persistent moan.
here-

He really has the art of a stripper, an exotic dancer.
Shalev has an enticingly chiseled body.
His expressions are irresistibly sultry.
He can enamor any guy in this world.
Though I have observed him in both active & passive roles I think he captivates everyone while being a bottom.
He really has an attractive butt

As you might observe in the above pic, Shalev doesn't have a zero-fat tummy, in fact this is what I find the most attractive in him. I guess he has hard rectus abdominus muscles (tummy muscles) but they are a bit big!

I wish I could meet MATAN SHALEV
Best of luck to him.

Gawd!!!!! Fantastic!

A short discourse on sexuality

What is called natural? What's the criteria to be called 'natural'?
The most suitable answer can be something common over a period of time is natural.

In the Vedas (which I solely refer for spiritual knowledge and not as a code of conduct) it is implied that three things in the universe have no reason; Marriage, Life & Birth (All three are connected to each other).
The marriage of a man & woman leads to procreation. My question is are all of us here for procreation?
In Jewish religion celibacy is prohibited, then why Jesus was unmarried? And if I were to evoke the conspiracy theories of Mary Magdalene then things would become unnecessarily controversial.
In Hinduism, there have been 'Brahmachari' who are life long celibates. And that's accepted despite they don't procreate. Even in Christianity Papal candidates have to be celibate. Yes, homophobics can give an argument that because Brahmacharis & Popes have to lead an ascetic life that's why they leave the worldly pleasure but if we don't lead an ascetic life does that mean we have to procreate. And some people have such a misfortune that despite being married they remain childless (baanjh)!
My point is who exactly governs us? Who sets these code of conducts?
Yes, again homophobics can give the argument that Majority wins. Then why are Sikh people not penalized for not wearing helmets on the Indian roads? The answer is sad; here its a question of religion and not sex (sexual preference) that's why!
If we assume people with uncommon sexual orientation (did I just coin a new term?) are in minority then they should be given protection.
But indeed that's not the case. U know y? Coz it aint ques of rlgn bt sex!

So the demand of time is to create sexual awareness.


But that's not the only thing I have to say. I even understand the plea of all the Indians when it comes to sexual liberalization. (...to be contd)